Have you ever been told that your FND is a result of stress? I remember when I was told that, and I wasn’t happy with that explanation at all! I AM NOT STRESSED, DANG IT! At that time, I was very out of touch with what my body was feeling, so I probably wasn’t feeling stressed. I had learned to always look calm, cool, and collected, even if underneath it all I wasn’t.
One of the things I love about blogging is that I have the freedom to change my mind. If I wrote a book, and I still might, once it’s out there, you can’t take back your words. With a blog, all it takes is a few keystrokes and you can edit your message. The past couple of months have been a learning and growing experience. I’ve made plenty of mistakes, but that’s okay, that’s just part of being human. I feel bad that sometimes things I’ve said have led to hurt feelings. That is never my intent, but I sometimes get a little too passionate about my recovery. If I have said something that has hurt you, I’m truly sorry. I’m learning to weigh my words more carefully and that’s a good thing. If I say something to which you take offense, please send me a message. I would far prefer to be able to address something directly than to try to decipher cryptic hints on social media. Writing is a new experience for me and I don’t always express what I’m trying to say as well as I could. Miscommunication happens. I wish it didn’t.
Nature has always spoken to me, from the time I was a little girl playing in the creek and catching tadpoles. There is something about the fresh air and being outdoors that just makes my heart feel lighter. I am incredibly thankful to live in the gorgeous state of Colorado. It’s no wonder it is among the healthiest states in which to live; our beautiful surroundings beckon us to leave the couch and explore the great outdoors.
I’m a person who really likes to understand things. It’s why I majored in science in college. If you don’t have a good explanation for what you are saying, I probably won’t believe you. I’m a hard core skeptic.
Enter Functional Neurological Disorder. It does not make sense to me at all. How can my body just quit working correctly for no good reason?